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詞：李杰明 W.M.L
曲：李杰明 W.M.L & 陶山 Skot Suyama
編制：陶山 Skot Suyama
導演：Michael Li
I Need You
I need you here
Always near my dear
最愛的人容易變最恨的
The person I love easily becomes the person I hate
最愛的人無理取鬧怎麼變最笨的
How come I always become unreasonable in front of my loved one?
氣憤的 疑問著
Feeling angry and questioning myself
我剩了 最後的耐性 脾氣太硬
I'm too stubborn with very low patience
怎麼冷眼瞪著 卻說自己在整頓呢？悔恨著！
I know I'm fighting her but then I lied, said I'm trying, regret
我想保護 我最愛的人
I want to protect her from myself
可我卻扭曲她的好處 變最爛的人
But I'm always twisting her kindness and making her the enemy
犯罪的人 也曾經想誠心的澄清
Sinner all at once, I want to confess and be good
結果是藉口在騙我自己
But it's all excuses just so I can lie to myself
別面對自己的不安全感控制慾
I don't have to face my insecurity that turns into control
I need you here
Always near my dear
我出生 在這個世界
My mom left right after my birth
我用著哭聲 脆弱的向我生母致謝
I use my fragile crying and say thank you for giving birth to me
她是第一也是唯一必須用依賴的心態
She is the first and the only person I was supposed to rely on
我親愛的心脈 也是一切兵敗的侵害！
But even blood can't make her stay
她走了 順便摧毀我第一次信任
She left, destroying my first trust
成了心中不信任的定論 沒印證的氣憤
I learn to never trust again, but then the anger grows in me
心中的矛盾？逃避？饒了我吧！
So many voices in my head always
所有的聲音都別再議論！別記恨
Please give me a break, don't hate her
快點撕開心房嘗試再信任
Try to trust again
我信任我爸
I trust my Dad
我不想長大 總是找話題想找他講話
I don't want to grow up always finding excuses to be with him
是一種牽掛
Relying on him
但可惜瞞不過隱藏的變化
Because in life, everything changes
我走到九歲 我守候的一切是否像酒後的一夜 都不見了？
When I was 9, our 2 person team broke up again
你親那人是你新的心上人
He fell in love with a girl
稱呼母親的對象請在我心中先換人
And she become the person I have to call Mom
我只是嫉妒她要與我分享你的愛
I'm jealous that she gets to share your love with me
我知道你還是愛我
I know you still love me
我只是難過我用的詞是“還是”
I'm just sad that the word I use is ''still''
I need you here
Always near my dear
恨她？愛她？誠實的感受在哪？
Hate? Love? What are my real feelings?
剩下 掙扎 心中的路也已分岔
Left me struggle, my heart has different voices
別信任 一個病人 我心中有太多疑問
Can't trust myself, I'm sick, I have so many doubt
這信任 已經冰冷 我是我唯一的親人
Trust turned cold, I am the only person I can love
我只要信任誰 那個誰就離開
Whenever I trust someone, that person leaves
我只要記恨誰 那個誰就存在
When ever I hate someone, that person stays
我無法控制 我的控制慾
I can't control my feeling of controlling my lover
很諷刺的 我重視的是 擔心內心安全
But ironically I end up pushing her away to secure myself
我卻貪心得到愛
I'm greedy for love
我無法專心割掉心脈
Cant cut the desire for Mom
貪心所以期待
Still greedy, still hoping
一再被愛影響心態
Never in the right mind
關心都變奇怪
Even my caring is twisted
我其實一直信著愛能讓以前的傷不再是遺憾
I actually still believe that one day love can heal my wound
但或許愛是一種絕症 而我早已罹患！
But maybe love is cancer and I already have it
